From 153bd04b88e6b1ea299dab4f3bbff2b45ceb82ff Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: gennyble Date: Mon, 19 Aug 2024 18:59:37 -0500 Subject: from pugetsound ventura --- served/bits/__.html | 128 ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ 1 file changed, 128 insertions(+) create mode 100755 served/bits/__.html (limited to 'served/bits/__.html') diff --git a/served/bits/__.html b/served/bits/__.html new file mode 100755 index 0000000..e7aff8a --- /dev/null +++ b/served/bits/__.html @@ -0,0 +1,128 @@ +--- +template=post +title=🌦️ +category=writing +#Publish 2023-08-05 02:57 -0500 +style=/styles/post.css +style=🌦.css + +description=briefly, on names. maybe. +--- + + + +

on names, maybe

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+ i really like names. the things people call themselves. these-these wonderous + groups of syllables traded; swapped; created out of thin air, some thoughts, and a whole lot of self. +

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+ shorten them, lengthen them, throw the whole collection of letters away and start anew. + co-opt a word! move through and around and relax within. change them if you please! + regularly if you like. maybe even swap back, forth, and back again. +

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+ here's a thing. posted originally + here + (dead link), but in a different form. i was playing a game once and saw them. we talked about their name, briefly, + for the five or so minutes we had. +

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i know i'm very strange; i get excited when people are nice and neat and cool and talk to + me when i play games such as these. your name is just very nice.

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we all know i have a softspot for short-and-abstract and english-word names. yours happens to tickle me.

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How short can a poem be? A sentence, a word, perhaps a letter? maybe it can be a carefully placed space, + floating there, meaning. we now know, though, that there's a two letter contender. it's e., see. +

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could it be euler's number? possibly! estrogen? could be! maybe even nothing. a letter most common. + everything. “anything”, you said, “eye of the beholder”.

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i'm a lot, don't worry, i know. but your name, those two letters. they've taken me. e. you + asked me! “what does it mean to you”. well, for the time being, and likely a little more—until + this memory slips by lost to the hazy abyss of those forgotten—it means you.

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(and something more personal in the same presentation style)

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+ most people know me by a name that the government does not. not the one that was given to me. +

they call me genny, short for Genevieve.

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+ it was given to me, accidentally, by a now-good friend. genny first, + and then Genevieve. But it's not a given name. More offered and accepted. + I like it—that's why I use it!—but it's not perfect I don't + think. Not perfectly me I mean. +

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+ I have a brain-disconnect. Between my body and my mind. + And I like a lot of names, some maybe even more than genny, but I don't think I can wear + them. Not openly and feel good about it. Names like +

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+ Which sounds beautiful but I would be terrified to wear. What if someone saw me + wearing it? They'd say it's not mine. They'd know it's stolen. It can't possibly be mine. + How can a name such as that belong to someone that looks so +

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+ someone so me. +

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+ this page was originally 🌦.html, but the links were showing up url encoded in discord + and elsewhere and, for some reason, firefox mobile was just not rendering + the sun-storm rain cloud. +

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+ so now it's the double-underscore. which i think, "yeah, that might be better". if i go and + overanalyze it- (well don't do do that). why not? anyway, if we analyze it maybe too + much we can say it's a metaphor for my lack of solid identity and desire to flip-flop + between names a lot. "fill in name here". (that's dumb). hey, leave me alone, me. let + me have fun. +

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+ i never do explain the emoji do i? i just like it. i use it in name fields a lot. the current + canon is that rain is my middle name. it's so unassuming, the sun-rain. there are no expectations. + just, maybe, that they're a little weird. or something. +

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